As this brand new Christmas season begins, I have been thinking about how Christmas was for us as kids growing up. I recall very little excitement around the holidays. We always had a tree, even when we lived in the trailer while my mom went to school after my dad died, where we had no room to store decorations or money to buy new ones. So it was a table top tree, with no lights. Mom used her spool of pink hair ribbon to make several streamers the length of the tree, and then tied them together at the top with a bow. They streamed down over the tree like a waterfall. Then she got out the spools of thread from her sewing basket and we tied them on the tree with colored yarn. Even the empty wooden spools got used by coloring them with crayons.

Why do I remember that tree so well, and not the presents that were under it? No idea. But it is a good example of how Mom managed to provide us with the traditions in spite of difficulties. My sister tells of asking Santa for a chemistry set for several years to no avail. Santa apparently felt it was too dangerous for her. My sister said finally one Christmas she realized she didn’t want it anymore, and it left her feeling a sense of mourning. I don’t remember wanting anything in particular, but I always knew I would get some socks, and a blouse. Santa always wanted me to be well dressed I guess, because he continued to give me blouses until he went to heaven with Mom a few years ago. As a teen I remember happily getting things for my hope chest.

One present I do remember was from my junior high years when my adult brothers marched in one day with an American Flyer electric train. Wow. The only problem was that they were the ones who always got to put it up, and play with it. But each year they brought us new pieces for it, so we really enjoyed it. I still have it, lock, stock, and locomotive, so when our new house becomes a reality there will be a special place for the tree and the train beneath it again. Too bad my brothers won’t be there to see it. After we moved out of the trailer we always had a record player, so Bing and Perry and others would always be playing during the holidays. I still have those actual records too, and a player, although a more recent one has replaced the original. I am sure they will fill our new home with those same melodies.

I always loved the lights on the tree, especially the bubble ones. They disappeared from stores for a lot of years but have subsequently made a comeback, so I am sure there will be bubblers on the tree as well. Why is it I only remember such silly little things? In Hello Myrmidon I hope to have a sketch of a photo of the Christmas tree in 1952 when my sister and I got dolls and buggies for Christmas. I actually have no other recollection of that Christmas except that photo, even though it was the last Christmas we had with my dad. I was almost 9 at the time, so I should remember something, but I don’t. I guess that really shows that although the traditional trappings were kept for our whole childhood, the real spirit of the season was always muted.

I was wondering about why that was today as I woke up, and it occurred to me to try to recall what my mom told me about Christmases while she was growing up. Many things came to light for me, and I began to understand why we didn’t get as excited about Christmas as other kids did. That will be the subject of my next trip through the archives. It is not a particularly cheery story but I think it will be worth telling.